give me some sugar

Well, I don’t know where to start. I am in this half funk/half elated mood. First the funk. I failed my second glucose test. MARGINALLY failed I might add. Two of my readings were slightly higher than normal. They are still putting me in the category of “Gestational Diabetes.” Ugh. This makes me feel so horrible on so many levels. First, I feel like a failure. I do have a tendency to snack and I do adore all things sugar, but honestly, before the glucose tests, I have been pretty darn proud of myself. I have kept my weight gain down, blood pressure is good, etc. I’m trying to be positive about the whole thing and keep it all in perspective. I meet with a nutritionist on Wednesday and the nurse at my office assured me that if I follow a regimented meal plan and exercise plan that I will not have to go on medicine and me and baby will be fine. I am positive about this too. It’s just ... I feel like such a statistic. An over weight statistic at that. Lovely. The nurse did mention that we would receive additional sonograms and fetal monitoring the closer we get to our due date. I can’t help but be happy about that because I miss seeing baby g’s sweet little profile inside my black and white womb. She also mentioned that we would probably go before our due date of Feb 18^th with an induction or c-section. Now, a c-section scares the ever-living daylights out of me but an induction has its own fears. I am praying each day that God knows my strengths and what we need to all be healthy and safe. So, I am handing this over to Him and I know he will keep us close and give us the best situation we can handle. Jake is pretty stoked about going early. His birthday is the 8^th. His dad’s is the 9^th. It would be neat for baby to be born close to either of those dates or even share a birthday with his daddy. We shall see.

On the elated side, our house is magically coming together. After three years of blood (Jake’s), sweat (Jake and Jenna) and tears (yes, mine) we are seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. The nursery is 90% complete. All I need is artwork and final decorations. The curtains I chose are about 4-5 inches too short and its driving me bonkers every time I go in that room. I am going to take the hem out this weekend and see if that helps. More on house renos later. I am going to get with the program and actually add some pictures to this blog.

Let’s not even broach the topic of Christmas. I am almost done shopping and we finally got a tree up and decorated. That’s about that at our house this year. Next year we will do better.