inspiration(less)

My attempts at blogging are half-ass at best. I have so much to say, so much I want to remember. I have no time. Let me rephrase that. I do have the time, I just don't use my time wisely. The internet has become a huge time suck for me, namely facebook. Like the rest of modern civilization (minus my husband) I have been on facebook for years. I have found all the people I wanted to find and have sufficiently stalked their pages. I know more about my 415 "friends" than I knew about them when I knew them in real life. But, like clockwork, when Ollie is down for the night and Jake is watching television I automatically go there - facebook.com. I can spend hours (oh the wasted hours make me want to cringe) trolling photos, reading status updates and pressing the like button because I am too lazy to actually write a comment. I hold my head in shame when I find myself on a stranger's page... you know the one. The stranger who is friends with a friend of a friend and you randomly ended up on their page because you saw wedding photos four years ago and now you go back again and again because, by golly, I need to know if they enjoyed their family cruise to the Bahamas. Yeah, that stranger. I have decided to strike. To put an end to my time suck. To focus on my life in real time. To make my time count. To make more time for Jake. To let Ollie stay in the bath for a few extra minutes because the kid loves water and loves to kick until there is no water left in his sweet (almost too small for him) baby tub. To actually put my project list into effect. Hello painting, sewing, roman shades, photo organization, fall cleaning, decorating, exercise, recipe trials. To take more pictures of the baby. To focus on me and to be the best that I can be. I need to be.... wait for it folks... my own inspiration. I am inspired just typing that.

Today is my wedding anniversary. Jake is driving home from Wilmington and we have a dinner date planned at Outback Steakhouse (our blind date spot). I am so excited to sit across from my husband and celebrate four years of marriage. To toast to the next 50+ years we have ahead of us and to plant a big ol' kiss on his handsome face. Today I will be inspired to enjoy the company of my husband... and then update my status on facebook.

Hula dancing at our reception (O'hanas at the Polynesian Resort WDW)